Teresa Benedicta of the Cross has long been a saint I call my sister saint. Her truth and insight have guided me, offering solace to my soul in some of life’s most difficult seasons.

As a Christian woman , miscarriage is more than the loss of a child.

It also feels like the loss of promises.

The unraveling of prayers.

Miscarriage in your forties: An intimate reflection on grief, faith and the fading dream of motherhood as one has planned and imagined!

In the gentle hush of ordinary living, there exist stories that rarely find their way to light: the stories of older women who have dreamed of holding a child. These women have sacrificed years to secure financial stability and wholeness psychologically, but most importantly, cultivated an unwavering and intimate relationship with God as they put their trust in the One who has sustained them in all their challenges and difficulties as single and Catholic women. However, when the time seems to have finally come, they only encounter the raw ache of miscarriage.